I started this journey to help others release their fears. Along the way I learned to let go of some of my own. I never would of written anything on this page if I didn’t let go of my fear of exposure. When I asked what people look for in a blog I was told one thing..AUTHENTICTY. Raw and open truth.
Well the reason I started Life Without Lines was to learn to release my own fears. I had alot of them. Fear controlled me. Hiding behind the ” I don’t like change” or “I’m okay” or “I’m doing alright” were the cop outs that I frequently used. I had a lot of fears. Since I started this I have been able to let go of a few. I’m a work in progress. My biggest fear was being open about myself.
I was scared of the dark til I was 21. I had an imaginary friend until I was nine. Her name was Miranda. I never slept facing the wall. And the pillowcase had to be open on the left side. I never took the last swig of any bottle because I thought I would be swallowing all the dirt that settled to the bottom. I whispered in public in case I said something offensive. I stayed away from low cut shirts because I was scared I would expose myself. If I left the house alone at night I ALWAYS ran to my car. And MICE. Everything about them scared me…everything.
I never shared a fork. Never slept in the clothes I wore all day. I mean the list goes on forever. The bottom line is I was scared to live. Fear made me come up with so many excuses. And excuses are just lies we tell ourselves to keep from progressing. Once I let go of my excuses alot of my fears went away.
That brings me to today. It’s scary to be open. Especially when other people’s judgement was also a big fear. Not anymore. Say what you want about my fears. They were lessons for me. If I didn’t get over them I wouldn’t be who I am. And YOU wouldn’t be reading this. I have started a new journey. One full of ups and downs. But any fears I face I will conquer. I’ll give them biggest gut punch and push them over a cliff. (Not suggested for actual people)
For many years fear was my “friend”. The truth is it was my enemy. Friends don’t lie to you. They don’t hold you back. Or steal your joy. When I let go of fear I made new friends. They’re names are PEACE, STABILITY, AND SELF-LOVE. Feel free to claim them as your friends also. I mean that’s what’s awarded to all of us. Now that truth should never scare you.
GO BE GREAT!